I Got Everything I Need

From the beginning of December to now, I have truly been going through some storms in my life.  These storms are taken place for my good, my test and to prepare me for my next level in Christ Jesus.

I was led to go to a Rival Service Wednesday Night. So I washed up, got dressed and just as I was ready to put on my final touches, 'A Storm Appeared' I begin to panic and I became angry and hurt all over again because of the previous storm 2 days ago.  Wow! I repeated. I begin to cry and scream aloud. 'of course no one was in the house but me at the time'

I begin to make phones calls in a hast with angry tones, but yet apologizing. Already knew who was involved. Flesh just took over and now I'm just hurt, upset and disappointed because it was connected to someone I care so deeply about and the items had heart felt messages behind them.

I finally got my self together and went on to the service. I was there but was not there. The preacher was talking about the storms in our lives. "When the storm is over, I'll still be standing" This preacher was the type that like's for you to talk to your neighbor! I did not have a neighbor sitting beside me to talk to. So I just sat and listen deeply and thinking of all my storms..

So after the message he made an alter call and said; 'if any one want to get out of their storm, step in the aisle'.  When I heard the words "get out of" my mind triggered and flash.  I immediately refuse to be taken out of the the storm because I want to 'go through my storm'  Now we could have very well been saying the same thing, I don't know, but I did not like those words 'get out of'.

My Bishop was in the house and so I was lead to go to him. I leaned to his ear and ask for prayer because I did not want to 'get out' of my storm but strength to 'go through'.  It was I that asked God not to just save me, but to use me and I was very much aware of what that meant.

So the Bishop prayed with me, hands lifted up and God truly was present. I danced and was drunk in the spirit, cried and I felt better after releasing some of the tension that was baring on me but still sad.

All this to wake up the next morning to be ministered to that; "everything I needed to go through my storm, I already have, "The Holy Spirit". Man can't pray my strength in the Lord.  As I look back in the beginning when God began his work on me. I was in a church and was lead to go up for prayer. Well just as the pastor of that church was about to lay hands on me, God laid the anointing on me and I pasted out without him even touching me. This happen twice, at different churches.  He also separated me from a long time friend whom I was very dependent on for many years.

I GOT IT NOW!!!! The will of God for my life is to be solely dependent on Him.  He has given me the Holy Spirit and He wants me to Walk there in for all my answers and direction as to what to do. He has a work for me to do and I must only listen and seek him for instruction. And regardless of what this life brings, He has the last say... So I pray in the name of Jesus, when and if the next storm hits, I want take it to heart but know that it's only a test!